I'm Not Dancing Anymore

Terri lived with O. J. and Nicole years before their marriage. She witnessed firsthand the power struggles in the couple's intense relationship. She listened upstairs as they engaged in violent arguments. Yet when the murders took place years later, her entire family remained steadfast in its insistence that O. J. was innocent. She'd soon learn that what bound them together was loyalty, not certainty, and in the midst of it all, she was left with her own unanswered questions. Was her uncle really innocent? Or was her family simply blinded by love and loyalty? These were subjects no one in the Simpson family was allowed to discuss. Now, for the first time, Terri Baker breaks her family's code of silence. She talks honestly and painfully about O. J.'s discomfort with his African American roots and his love affair with wealthy white America. She tells how it felt to live in the shadow of her famous uncle, while the Browns rode on the coattails of his fame. She describes the financial and emotional strains of two trials on her family, as they banded together to support a man who rarely supported them. Most movingly, she talks about her own inner conflicts as the struggle between truth and family loyalty drove her to alcoholism and severe depression.